Thud. Mac-Thud. (macthud) wrote,
Thud. Mac-Thud.

Definitely, Maybe

When, oh, *when* will I learn not to watch such things? At least not without company who can (and will) hold me while I sob, so I can get past the piece of me that says "stop *now*, because if you find you can't stop yourself later, there's no-one here to help"...

I'm sitting here all torn up, because my story doesn't have the ending yet. Not even close, so far as I can tell.

Lots of beginnings. So many loose end threads that could have been, could yet be, the end ...

Not "the one," most likely, not the be-all-end-all, because I just really don't think I work that way, but the most-important-always, that person who is "home", the one that stays through it all, who always comes back to me, who I always come back to ...

I miss her. Whether or not I've met her yet.

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