July 28th, 2003

toonie

well, that sucked rocks...

I don't like this month I'm having.

First, I'm just about ready to write a big check to the taxman, and another to my accountant, to start clearing up a decade of errant ways (started with a serious bout of depression lumped on top of an unexpected employment transition which took rather too long to resolve), when I need do a chunk of regular maintenance on my van (major tune up, lube, oil, filters, etc.), which must then be followed by a chunk of irregular maintenance (brakes, a tire, shocks), and then the transmission decides it's done. Nearly $4K later, I'm reliably driving to work, but I can't clear up that decade just yet...

OK, ten years is a long time, but 11 years isn't really that much longer... so on we go.

Things at the office are being weird. Hints are there that at least some jobs are in jeopardy -- but without clarity. What is the problem, what specific expectations aren't being met, what needs to shift to de-jeopardize? I'm feeling like one of those in danger, this week, which may or not reflect reality -- but it's not making those unexpected expenses any easier to deal with...

Tonight, I get home late, and kinda foggy in the brain, get out of the van, and go round the back to get my bag... which has shifted oddly in transit, and dumps itself on the driveway. My PowerBook (G3, 1998 -- Wallstreet) lands PC-Card first, and destroys the card cage, and maybe destroys the WaveLan Silver Turbo... Since the drive-bay is shot, I can't really test the card. I'm now working on the wire, for the first time in 2+ years, since the house got an Airport Base Station...

And the last chunk of what I'd accumulated for that decade wipe-out may now have to go toward a replacement Mac, so I can keep doing the work that brings in the money that may eventually let me wipe out the past decade's mis-steps.... Partly because of tonight's dive, partly because the latest iteration of Mac OS X (Panther) won't run on this machine -- and I need to stay current, given customer and client needs...

I would really be thrilled to get some random good news, the next few days...
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